I feel I am a new being, everything before is only a shadow in the past: 11 de diciembre de 2014
I feel my head full of tension, a stress reaction to the paratoxicity that is the only form of marijuana that is cheap-ish and usually available. Paraguayo, no flores. Hay que cortarlo como si fuera una barra de pan.
I think I want to spend time with people in shorter periods, with alone time tucked comfortably in between meetings like a bed made with just-cleaned sheets. That sweet fresh scent you smell when you pull back the covers is my mind after I have time to think and reflect. My eyes feel jittery, the rain smacks wetly on the patio, and Chiki perches calmly on the bed of our Couchsurfing host, Ximena.
We did hitchhike! It took all day, waiting around at gas stations asking people for rides. Raúl is the talker, I just followed him around and confirmed everything he said. We spent about 13 dollars to get from Mendoza to Córdoba, and the ticket for the bus costs about 50 dollars.
I’m such a cat lurking at the edge of every conversation, only half-listening, understanding a bit less than I hear. I feel so excited and nervous, so many young, creative minds everywhere, so much energy and relationships to analyze between people, to learn to know in the way you know all the spinning corridors in your own mind. I feel nervous trying to understand everything people ask me and being able to respond not only with correct grammar, but with something genuine, responsive, reflective, and positive, as well.
Is it possible to only give off positive energy into the universe? Is it possible to absorb all the energy of the universe, positive, neutral, negative, and change it into something more definitive, exact, obvious? The way to channel that energy is through creation, art, knowledge. I feel more curious, I feel I am a new being, everything before is only a shadow in the past. Every morning I’m better, a more efficient, smarter filter.
Una gata otra vez, buscando una onda de cultura que sea de buena calidad.
