Glad I’m not Mormon: June 18, 2007

June 18, 2007

Today is Camila’s birthday, so I sent her a text message and a message on MySpace. I guess calling her would have been better, but oh well! I just put alarms on my phone for Maddie’s and Jenna’s birthdays because I know I’ll forget. Today I had only swim team because my soccer team is in Las Vegas for regionals. Tomorrow is my first swim meet, I don’t know if I’m excited, I don’t really think I’m ready, but oh well. I’m kind of nervous, but I don’t know why because they don’t even matter. The meets, I mean. But anyways, I went to the Meridian pool today with Josie, it was fun. Also, right before that me and Karly were watching Firewall, but she didn’t want to go swim because she was “too tired” from cross-country. What a lame-o! But whatever I had fun. Then I came home, had two burritos, and read my book for awhile until Karly called, then I hung out with her while her little brother and his friend hung around. I then shaved my legs just awhile ago, and they are soooo smooth! Ha. Yea.

MOMO’S! AHH!!

I want to talk about how glad I am that I’m not Mormon.* I know that sounds bad, but I seriously am glad that I’m not brainwashed with all this shit about men being superior over women and all their stupid ideas about being modest and not drinking beer or coffee, and the whole missionary thing. I think it’s all so entirely false and stupid. It’s like the whole world is bad and only they are right and true. They are so boring, too. Like they are a bunch of closed-minded freaks, who won’t take any new ideas into account. And every time I hang out with Jenna and Karly, they make me feel like I am the worst influence ever, only because I have a two-piece swimsuit and I’ve actually said bad words before (but who cares?, it’s a word!) They don’t like to be daring or have any fun because it’s so BAD! Seriously, they are not open-minded, their parents won’t let them do anything, and their parents think I’m some type of horrible monster because of the clothes I wear or the music I like. They always try to be so modest and I think they need to just lighten up and stop trying to be so good because it’s so freakin’ boring!

[*Biwheel chart with Ana’s chart follows.]

And the missionary thing is so ridiculous I think. They say they are spreading God’s word, uh yea right, they are spreading some dumbass’s made up book about him seeing God. It’s all false I think. And only guys go on missions. That really pisses me off the most, because the guys always go do the important things and the girls stay home and clean. Exactly the Mormon way! Guys are superior! Wow, I hate them. And I know I sound like a hypocrite declaring they aren’t open-minded, but I’m not, I’ve tried to understand them, but I can’t. And after hanging out with Mormons all summer, I’ve kind of needed a more thrilling change of scenery. I wish I’d find someone who is exciting and daring and easy to talk to, and like me. Catholic, or any other religion! Just not Mormon! Ahh ok I’ve vented enough…I’m going to read.

[I set the time for 17:00 because Ana had a whole day of activities so I think it’d be more accurate than a noon chart.

I wanted to include the transits here because I believe this is the first time that Ana expresses her criticisms and doubts about the Mormon religion, in an in-depth way at least. I think it’s a good example of how her Sun as ruler of the 7th is conjunct Saturn in the 12th. At this point in life I’ve realized that a lot of Ana’s intimate friendships end up being with people that are so religious they’re literally in a cult (although they’d obviously deny that), like Jenna and Karly, or they’re addicts in a way (or at least use drugs/alcohol in a much more intense way than Ana would), or they simply aren’t very good friends, some to the point of literally being a hidden enemy, like Candy, although we still haven’t gotten to Ana’s explanation of her. It all seems like super 12th house stuff. Ana doesn’t feel like she has any real friends that truly get her or are like her.

So the transits here show Mars at 25° Aries squaring the core axis of Ana’s chart while still sextile the Sun in Gemini. The Sun opposes Pluto retrograde by degree, and also applies to oppose Ana’s Mercury. Profection lord Mercury in Cancer turned retrograde while the Moon was applying to conjoin it three days before this entry, while both opposed Ana’s Moon-Uranus-Neptune. Venus is now in Leo conjunct Ana’s Jupiter retrograde and opposing her natal Venus. Transiting Jupiter in Sag is activating her Venus-Jupiter as well by sextile/trine. The Moon this day would have conjoined Venus and activated her AC-DC axis before conjoining Saturn, which is still relatively close to Ana’s DC and opposes Neptune by degree.

The Mercury retrograde stuff is interesting and I wonder if it ties into this Mormon stuff. Ana’s suddenly like, hang on, I actually think your religion is fucking stupid! I’ve been catering to you about it for my whole life, playing along with your delusions and putting up with all your weird, closed-minded beliefs and prejudices, and I actually don’t want to do this anymore! Mercury is also hitting the nodal axis very closely, which is itself hitting Ana’s Moon by degree at this point, and in this chart it’s literally exact to the arc-minute (I think that’s how you use that term?). What are your thoughts on this? Is it Mercury retrograde and nodal stuff? Or is it something else, maybe all the action in her 1st and 7th? Ana’s always felt kinda irritated and held back by Jenna and Karly being Mormon, but this is the first time she goes into any real depth about it.]