September 12, 2011 It’s 8:15 a.m. I got up at seven to say goodbye to Grandma and my aunt. They only stayed for one day, I wish they could have stayed for longer. Yesterday we went shopping and my mom…

August 16, 2011 Yesterday I hung out with Lisbet.* I went to her dad’s house because he was having a barbecue, and I ate like ten of these M&M sugar cookie things. I regret doing this. Later we saw Bridesmaids…

July 16, 2011 Haven’t written in a long while. I finished HP 7, and also went to the movie with Karly, her boyfriend, and her little brother. We got excellent seats because we got there at 8 and they were…

June 08, 2011 At library again. Yesterday I sent my personal essay to Chadwick and the head athletic director.* And I was so fucking anxious yesterday because I was nervous to see what Chadwick would say (he still hasn’t replied…

May 21, 2011 Veil of rain, sheets of thin tracing paper covering the bridges and buildings, brightening the greens and shading the city lights. I miss you when I’m with you and I hate you and I hate my anxiety.…

April 07, 2011 I got real high at the Brick the other night with Anne, Kendra, and Kan. I didn’t feel that high but I think I was because I smoked a lot. We made videos, and Anne and Kendra…

March 05, 2011 Yesterday after class and practice I went to the Brick with Kan and Zara and we drank. And Kan and I smoked by ourselves upstairs. And it was fun, but the whole time I was thinking about…

February 21, 2011 I’m starving and I can’t see anything. In Grady, Monday, no classes for President’s Day. Todayʼs one of those days where I want to hide…And I just donʼt like myself today because when I was working in…

January 07, 2011 I AM DRUNK.* I secretly want my Learning and Cognition teacher. I wish someone would love me, fully and unconditionally. I am at the Green House [the junior guys’ house]. I need to write. I probs won’t…