Did the Washing Wrong: February 21, 2011
February 21, 2011
I’m starving and I can’t see anything. In Grady, Monday, no classes for President’s Day. Todayʼs one of those days where I want to hide…And I just donʼt like myself today because when I was working in the gym yesterday I did the washing wrong because Jim [the manager] confused me on the phone, and then he emailed me all pissed.* And I just think that I will fail at everything. I got fired from Wauby’s…ha…but still. And I failed at SPU soccer big fuckinʼ time, and I always get the wrong thing at the store when my mom tells me to get something. I just think Iʼm fucking dumb sometimes. I dunno. Itʼs stupid and unnecessary.
[*Triwheel chart follows.]
And I have to meet at six tonight with my poster project group and I havenʼt even started what Iʼm supposed to do. And I donʼt want to. All I want to do is not exist. And not try anymore because everything is hard, or not enjoyable, or I fuck it up. At least we donʼt have class today.
Yesterday I went to bed at 7:45. Ha…The night before that there was a party at Calebʼs house and it was so fun! I wore my short, tight, white, lacy, ruffled dress. Ha. And I grinded on Cameron. MUAHAHA! And I told her I am in love with her. Oops. The night before that I got drunk at the Brick with Kendra and Zara and Sierra’s friend’s boyfriend. It was awesome. He pulled his pants up really high and strutted around and said, “I got it.” It was hilarious.
OH! Kan got her hair cut! Like Emma Watsonʼs, HELLA short. Like boy haircut. Itʼs so cute, it looks really good. She is totally able to pull it off…I went with her and took pics, it was great.
Well, I donʼt know what else…I just want to be hidden today. And not talk to anyone. I think Iʼll ride my bike to Starbucks in Fremont. PERFECT.
[I just wanted to point out here that the day Ana did the washing wrong the Mercury-Mars-Neptune conjunction was exact by degree, squaring her Mars in Taurus by degree. I feel like the symbolism makes sense with this event – Mercury-Neptune as blurry, confusing communication and misunderstandings, and then Mars is how Ana completed an action and then Jim was angry about it after the fact. He sent her an angry email (Mercury-Mars) after she took the wrong action (Mars-Neptune) because she misunderstood his directions (Mercury-Neptune). I think that’s really notable. I feel like the frequent drunken shenanigans lately could speak to the Mars-Neptune stuff squaring her natal Mars as well. What do you think?
Other notable transits here include the Sun-Chiron conjunction in Pisces sextiling the NN and Ana’s Mercury. NN now conjoins Ana’s Mercury by degree. Moon in Libra applies to conjoin Ana’s progressed Moon. Anything else you notice?]