Rude Camila: July 24, 2009

July 24, 2009

Today’s Friday. Karly’s gone, the day before she left we hung out at her house and she helped me download this DVD ripper thing and I copied XXX onto my computer, it was so nice!

Camila and Weston are already gone, they left today at about noon. Weston let me keep his underwear ha, they are very comfortable. I’m wearing them now. We went downtown shopping and I sold some clothes at Lux, and we stopped by Alive After 5, it was fun. We also went to Goodwill and Savers and I got some black slip-on sneakers that are awesome, and we got three mugs that all look alike, and that night we got drunk off the wine Weston brought. Except Camila, she fell asleep early. And Weston and I walked to Bitterroot to take pics of him and his Chief Joseph shirt with the sign at the elementary school. It was funny. And we all slept on the futon out back, it was great. And Weston kissed me! It was so weird. I’m strangely attracted to him, it’s weird. I dunno if I am or not. But sorta.

But one thing that’s weird and it sucked was that Camila would have moments where she was really rude to me. Like she’d make snippy little retorts to things I’d say, or just make fun of me or what’s in my room, like my stuffed whale, and my Hello Kitty stuff. And I think it was only because Weston was there, because she’s never acted like that. I think subconsciously she was establishing Weston as her territory and that I, in no way, was to be better than her…funnier, prettier, whatever. She was like saying that she’s the alpha, the one in charge. It was so strange and disheartening. Because the worst thing ever is to be put down by people you love, people you consider very close to you. People you’ve shared your secrets with and who you’re vulnerable with. It really sucked for awhile.* But then it was good.

[*Is this the eclipse energy, conjunct Ana’s Chiron-SN?? Biwheel chart follows.]

We went to Roaring Springs also. We played Trouble (“Kill yourself!”) and Contra and listened to music. And it was nice to have real people close to me. Funny, kind people (for the most part). But they left today and I was sad. Oh they told me these weird riddles. A man is watching the news, then goes upstairs, turns on the light, and kills himself. And another about pelican soup.

Today I gave plasma and it was so fast I barely had to wait, very strange! And nice. And then I packed up almost everything I’m taking to college, clothes, shoes. It felt fulfilling and accomplishing. I also did my college workout which was running two miles, and both were close to what I’m supposed to run it in so that was good.

Tomorrow I’m going fishing and camping with the folks. I think it’ll be fun. We’re getting up at 4 a.m. Shit! It’s almost one right now haha. I should go to bed I guess. Goodnight.

[I set the chart for Wednesday at 18:00 because I know that Alive After 5, which is a live music event, is a Wednesday thing, and I’m not sure when exactly Camila was in her rude vibe. I wonder if there’s anything in general that speaks to that energy. Mars conjoining Ana’s IC and opposing her MC? The Sun, now in Leo, conjunct the SN and both inconjunct Pluto and Ana’s Mercury? Profection lord Sun rules her 7th house and it just entered her 7th. Also there was a Moon-Mercury conjunction in Leo on Ana’s Jupiter and opposing her Venus, and also sextile Mars on Ana’s IC. Or maybe it’s all just the Venus-Saturn square? What are your thoughts on these transits with respect to how Camila made Ana feel?]