I Started Writing a Book: June 14, 2010
June 14, 2010
Home, lovely. Iʼve already accomplished a lot. Yesterday I went mountain biking with Dad and it was a pretty good workout. I crashed going down because I suck at steering ha. Today I woke at 5:50, not on purpose. I set my alarm for 6:30 a.m. so I could give plasma early, but I just woke up earlier. It was weird. I couldn’t fall asleep last night either. Anyways, I couldnʼt give plasma because I have to get a note from the people that pierced my lip saying they did it sterile, and even if I did do that I wouldnʼt be able to start giving til July. So I’m giving up ha, and I think Iʼm going to get my nose pierced just to spite them. And itʼs on my list, so yeah.
Right now my room looks HELLA TITE. HA HA HA. But seriously it’s so cool right now. I got this room divider thing from the storage unit, it was Grandpa Louie’s, and I made a fort with it and the Hello Kitty blanket I have. And there’s lights in various places so I don’t need the big light.
AND…I started writing a book.* Using my diaries. All I’ve done so far is organize thoughts and write down a few entries from the first three diaries Iʼve filled out. Honestly, I think itʼs so dumb. All my entries sound so foolish! Haha. And now I’m depressed because Iʼm imagining looking back on this entry here and thinking, “Wow, what a dumbass!” UGH! Hopefully itʼll get more interesting. I just want to think it’s cool and right now I really donʼt. And I always think about how many people in the world are trying to write a book and get it published, and I just think mine is probably shit compared to others. I dunno. Itʼs probably not going to have a plot either, because I donʼt want to mention peopleʼs names. I dunno, itʼs weird. But I was just reading through past entries in this diary, and they are LOADS better than the ones Iʼve been reading. So thereʼs still hope!
[*Triwheel chart follows.]
There was a lightning storm tonight, Dad and I watched. The sky was dark, almost reddish brown. Crazy. The flashes were purple. The drops of rain earlier were plump and sounded luscious upon impact with the pavement. I put a ton of stuff on the back of my denim jacket, I sewed all day. And I read too, my zen book [Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance]. It’s so good. It seriously puts my insanity into coherent speech, in writing, on paper that’s real. Itʼs how I know Iʼm still sane.
Itʼs midnight. I donʼt want to go to bed. Tomorrow Karly and I are hanging out til she has to work at 3. I talked to Syler on Facebook chat today, heʼs so cute. I think Iʼve been realizing that I like Seattle better than here. I like home, but I donʼt like Boise because itʼs so bland. Seattle is fucking weird and I think I need that.
Oh, on Wednesday I go to court haha. Not excited. Ah well. Life goes on, I guess, Iʼll get through it easily enough. I think I’m going to go to bed now…IDK. Love you.
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Today Mom was like, “I thought I was having an asthma attack during the night so I put my pajama bottoms on because I didn’t want you guys to find me dead without my pants on.”
[It’s unclear which day exactly Ana starts writing the book. It could have been June 13, but I set the chart for the day of the current entry. The Moon conjoins her Chiron-SN conjunction and opposes her Sun-Saturn-NN, as well as her progressed Mercury, which is also profection lord. Transiting Mercury is on her IC, thus opposing her MC, and applies to trine/sextile her Venus-Jupiter opposition, as well as trine her progressed Sun in Aquarius. Mercury is also aspecting Ana’s core axis by the “minor” aspect called sesquiquadrate, which is 135°. I have absolutely no idea how to interpret that though. I’m mentioning this because I want my pet theory to still stand, about Ana’s profection lord aspecting the core axis of her chart and she mentions writing a book with her diaries, which will eventually become On Being.
The Sun is closely inconjunct/semi-sextile her natal Sun-Chiron opposition. Venus has just entered Leo, so it’s still within orb of activating the core axis of her chart. Saturn in Virgo is trine/sextile her nodal axis to the exact minute. Mars in Virgo trines her Mercury and transiting Pluto retrograde. Mars also opposes Chiron in Pisces, and squares Ana’s progressed Mars by degree.
The Jupiter-Uranus conjunction in Aries opposes Ana’s progressed Moon in Libra, and this axis squares her natal Mercury and transiting Pluto. Transiting NN conjoins Ana’s Moon-Uranus-Neptune conjunction. I also think it’s interesting that her progressed AC in Pisces opposes transiting Saturn, and her progressed MC in Sag squares Saturn. What does that mean?
That’s a lot of information. How would you synthesize it? Does anything speak to Ana’s mention of starting her diary book? Maybe profection lord Mercury conjunct her IC in the 5th and opposing her MC?]