Confused about Eli: April 06, 2007
April 06, 2007 Last night I barely had any homework so I hung out with Jenna and Karly. Before we hung out with Karly, me and Jenna did some sewing, and I fixed my JouJou capris, and she fixed the rip in her pant leg. Then we went to Karly’s house and helped her with her history project. We made a movie for it and Miki came over. It was pretty funny. Actually not really. Haha. Yeah, I don’t think we are ever really funny. Alyssa and Lisbet are funny, we aren’t. Right now is first period: history. My ma…
Summer diary: February 12, 2007
February 12, 2007 (continued) 10:11 p.m.* [*Charts and notes follow.] Ok so I was thinking about it in the shower and last night before I went to bed, and I decided that this summer is going to be the best…
Ana loves Eli: December 21, 2006
December 21, 2006 It’s Christmas break!!!! Only four days until Christmas. Actually only three because it’s like 1:30 a.m. of the 22nd,* so yeah. I’m almost done with everyone’s gifts, I just need to finish my mom’s calendar. This Christmas…
I’m so annoyed: November 27, 2006
November 27, 2006 Today sucked ass. Not only because it was Monday, but because I went to bed at 12:30, we have a full week this week, Eli wasn’t at school, I have a C in math and I’ve stopped…
Homecoming: October 01, 2006
October 01, 2006 10:46 p.m.* I just had the weirdest weekend ever! Grandma Jane was staying with us for a long time so we drove her back to Lewiston this weekend and it was Maddie and Camila’s homecoming dance the…
I hate school: January 12, 2006
January 12, 2006 10:29 p.m.* Thursday [*Charts and notes follow. This is the first entry where Ana expresses her dislike for high school, a feeling that becomes pervasive and persistent.] Christmas was real fun, I got lots of cool stuff,…
losing things, finding things: 07 July 2012
Sweat, smoke, thin dresses, losing things, finding things, breeze and darker overcast skies, ruffles fluttering in the wind, a balcony with a bench, flowers, an ash tray, how this slightly reminds me of another world, maybe a dream world, making…
Blood, Björk, and Brainwashing: 25 May 2012
Cooling down in Café Nero, it’s hot hot hot! I had a massive headache and needed coffee. Today I bought three books at a cheap bookshop and over-the-knee, black, opaque socks because I am getting blisters on my feet from…
disappointment: 15 May 2012
disappointment, going back to America as degeneration, loneliness?, maybe not, coffee and cigarettes, wine and cheese and chocolate, annoyed with Moe’s lack of social perception, disbelief at how people are horrible at perceiving others’ feelings and emotions, long nails, long…
A letter to Damon Albarn: 29 March 2012
A letter to Damon Albarn: Hi. How are you? I miss you. I miss you and I don’t even know you. I miss you because I saw you only once at your concert in Seattle. I cried the whole time.…
Who cares? 19 March 2012
THINGS: Who cares? About anything? How do you care? Futility. How are we to survive? How can I conquer my own irrationality? Slight changes in my mind – hopelessness/despair, then excitement for the future; feelings of doom and that bad…