Cut Myself: April 07, 2011
April 07, 2011 I got real high at the Brick the other night with Anne, Kendra, and Kan. I didn’t feel that high but I think I was because I smoked a lot. We made videos, and Anne and Kendra…
Sawyer’s Email: March 05, 2011
March 05, 2011 Yesterday after class and practice I went to the Brick with Kan and Zara and we drank. And Kan and I smoked by ourselves upstairs. And it was fun, but the whole time I was thinking about…
Did the Washing Wrong: February 21, 2011
February 21, 2011 I’m starving and I can’t see anything. In Grady, Monday, no classes for President’s Day. Todayʼs one of those days where I want to hide…And I just donʼt like myself today because when I was working in…
I Am Drunk: January 07, 2011
January 07, 2011 I AM DRUNK.* I secretly want my Learning and Cognition teacher. I wish someone would love me, fully and unconditionally. I am at the Green House [the junior guys’ house]. I need to write. I probs won’t…
Musings on my Sanity: December 13, 2010
December 13, 2010 It’s Christmas break. So much time I have spent dreaming of this moment. No soccer, no school. And now I’m here. Yesterday we got our tree, and Dad and I got haircuts. I love mine! Sawyer and…
Want to be a writer?: November 11, 2010
November 11, 2010 Things I like: books, music, movies, Buddhism/Zen, coffee shops, traveling, art, writing, fashion being fucking insane ← I don’t like that, do I? Why does the city make me feel hopeless and desperate? I’m in a Starbucks…
I want to study abroad: October 06, 2010
October 06, 2010 I’ve been realizing more and more that I don’t want to go here next year. And that maybe I should start being a real person and doing something with my life instead of being scared to make…
I Hate Chadwick: September 27, 2010
September 27, 2010 Lots to say. Today was the first day of school. I felt hot and sweaty all day. Soccer was stupid. I HATE CHADWICK.* Weights was right after class, Chadwick thought I was going to hurt myself because…
Hit in the Face: August 19, 2010
August 19, 2010 Thursday. Been here for four days. Two-a-days. Ugh. I made both fitness tests. Mariah and Kan are my roommates. Kan has a 23-year-old boyfriend, he looks like he’s 30 haha. I hung out with Syler today at…
I Hate My Book: July 10, 2010
July 10, 2010 This isn’t important unless I’m famous, or I die suddenly and tragically, or if I have a huge impact on someone. It’s all perspective! If someone who thought I was brilliant in some way discovered this diary,…